Matthew 23:37-39 – The NIV Study Bible
O Jerusalem, Jerusalem you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wing, but you were not willing. Look your house is left to you desolate. For I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.”
Giving God my Desires
The day selected for my devotion happens to be the celebration of the day our son, Ridge, was born 10 years ago. As I think back to my single days, I am reminded of how often I prayed God would lead me to “Mr. Right.” There were many times I was impatient and frustrated thinking I was not being blessed with “Mr. Right” because I had sinned and this was my punishment. Although I did not really believe God punishes, I could not imagine what else it could be… c’mon, I was almost thirty and still dreamed of children.
One day my Mother said to me, “Kimberly, I know you think that you have given your desires to God, but as I am around you, I can sense that you have not.” I was shocked; I truly thought I had given this desire to God. So, I prayed “Please Lord, if I have not given this to you as I think I have, I am now begging you to take it. Let your will be done in my life. “If I am not meant to be married, and with children, please equip me with the strength to accept that and move on.”
After I prayed that prayer I really don’t recall thinking again of my desires, I believe he really took it away. Within a couple of months I met my husband Erik through work. He was not really the same as the guys I had dated in the past. I knew he was really special, and our future hopes, dreams, and our beliefs were the same. Eventually, we were married, and shortly thereafter, blessed with two beautiful children delivered “red hot” to us from our Lord and Savior.
So… as I write this, I reflect on what has blocked me from God and his will for my life.
I have been blocked with fear, and impatience. I continue every day to learn how loved I am by God as I live in my marriage and love the children God gifted to us.
I realize wholeheartedly that there was no need to be fearful, God did hear my prayers, and he too wanted me to be happy and blessed with a family. I needed to be patient as he prepared in “his” time the right man for me, and the right father for our children.
Prayer: Speak to my soul today Lord, any direction you may have for me. I am listening, and longing to hear your voice. Thank you for always being my sure guide! I love you!