Deuteronomy 30:19-20   I call heaven and earth to witness against you today that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Choose life so that you and your descendants may live, 20loving the Lord your God, obeying him, and holding fast to him; for that means life to you and length of days, so that you may live in the land that the Lord swore to give to your ancestors, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob.

Learning to Live Life

At a deeply troubling time in my life, I was broken and devastated.  My self-worth slipped to almost nothing.  Questions like:  What good am I?  Is life worth living?  Who cares about me?  Would my family be better off without me?   These thoughts went through my head every day.  I did not want to talk to anyone about it.

I grew up knowing God was always with me.  His love never wavered.  Yet, this strong force was nagging me in the opposite direction. I carried out my daily responsibilities with a heavy cloud around me.  I said my prayers every morning and night, but found no answers.

One day, my minister from church and a friend stopped by.  We talked and had a cup of tea.  The warm tea and pleasant conversation led me to some soul-searching.  I was a good person who had much to offer.  My children needed me, as did my family and friends.  I was my own stumbling block.

There was everything to be thankful for:  children, family, friends, and home, church, job, garden and community activities.  God was always there.  I was just blinded for a while.

Prayer:   Dear God, thank you for opening my eyes, ears and heart to this wonderful life. Amen.

Jennie Folts

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